Time Well Spent

I think the hardest thing about having more than one child is feeling like you have spent enough time with each of them. I always wanted to have more than one baby, three to be exact (and three is what I had). But I never really sat down and thought about the fact that having three babies means your time is divided by three or four or five. Sometimes Annabel will be in her room entertaining herself for an hour before I realize how long it has been. I spend a lot of attention on Lilly and Wesley (just like I did for Annabel when she was their age)and when they are napping, there is always a huge mess to clean up. And believe me, I do leave plenty of messes uncleaned. Annabel will be 5 this summer and that seems soooo big, but she is still my little girl and she is such a fun age. I want to be able to play barbies and paint pictures and play candyland, but I just can't ALWAYS do that. I wish I could clone myself, so that I could be everywhere I need to be at the same time, making everyone happy. I guess you really don't realize how fast your babies grow until you turn around and one of them is almost 5 years old. And you think about all the ways they have grown over the past 5 years and you want to put them on pause so that you can cherish every moment to its fullest. It seems like not that long ago Wesley was still my little wobbley baby boy, but now he barley fits into the baby towls anymore(which I still wrap him in after his bath) and he can run down the hallway faster than the speed of light. At night when I tuck Annabel in bed, sometimes she will tell me that she is "always going to live at home with mommy and daddy" and I am reminded of how much my kids love me and that I have spent our time together well. So, I really have to see it as a matter of quality not quantity. I don't see how mother's who have 4, 5, or 6 kids do it. I guess what really matters is going to sleep at night and knowing that you have done your best for that day and that your family is happy and your children love you...that IS really all that matters.


Almost 5 Years old!